'....Brendon and Saul met me at the pub on
the Saturday following my first experience with speed. Saul asked if I wanted to go thirds with them
in a bag again.
‘For sure,’ I
said, instantly aroused. ‘But this time
I want to do it like you guys do.’
Saul looked at Brendon, a slight frown on his face. Brendon took a deep breath then sighed.
‘It’s your choice, man. It’s the best way to do it, but only if
you’re careful. We’ve never told you to
do it this way though, it’s your decision.’
They took me to a house in the seedier part of
Wallsend. Two huge Rottweilers bounded
up to the corrugated iron fence and barked ferociously, slobber drooling from
their meaty lips, before a tall thin man emerged from the house and called the
dogs off, letting us through the gate.
After looking me over suspiciously, he invited us inside.
There were half a dozen people
in the lounge room, not counting the couple of toddlers. There was a sickly musky smell in the air, a
blend of pot and cigarette smoke and beer.
Each person wore a thin sheen of sweat on their faces in the warm
October night air. I stuck fast to
Saul. These people looked scary, dodgy,
and I felt scrutinised.
After a brief discussion with
the man Brendon told me to go with him and Saul into one of the bedrooms, away
from the kids. Inside was a woman in her
mid-thirties, with dirty peroxided hair, and dark circles that spread heavily
below her sallow eyes.
‘It’s his first time,’ Brendon
said to her. ‘You’re up, Ivan. Roll up your sleeves, man.’
I was suddenly incredibly
nervous. I hadn’t expected to go
first. Saul made a makeshift tourniquet
with his hand around my upper arm, holding it steady at the same time. I looked away, fearing not only the sting of
the needle, but terrified I would overdose.
This was new territory for me. I
felt the sensation like a small ant biting me before I heard her say ‘All
done,’ and pressing a bit of tissue into the crook of my arm. Saul released his
grip.
Instantly I tasted the speed,
again in the back of my throat, but in a much more palatable form than when we I had snorted it. Then my chest suddenly announced itself with
an emphatic Boom! That reverberated
around my body, my veins delivering the stimulant to all areas of my body in a
milli-second. The rush took my breath
away and left me panting, like I had just had an orgasm.
Five minutes later I re-emerged
into the lounge, a new version of Ivan.
I was confident, I engaged with the strangers who no longer seemed so unattractive
or unapproachable. Brendon and Saul and
I stayed and talked, listening to music until daylight crept over the east-edge
of Wallsend. I even made friends with
the dogs.
I had never felt so
accepted. I had never felt so alive....'
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